i'm giving up on M, he's just not worth all this effort... hahaha.
oh and he acted like he was mad at me today for hours at school just for fun. he said that he was just kidding and wanted to see how i reacted. duh i reacted poorly, i ignored that asshole! it was so rude, i'm sick of him.
anyways, that's not what i wanna talk about today. i wanna talk about the fact that i gained FOUR WHOLE POUNDS. how the hell does that even happen?!? overnight! what the fuck???
i'm really hoping it's just water weight from all that lettuce... yesterday i was a rabbit.. haha.
today i was a bottomless pit. i think it's the lack of sleep, it makes me tired and dehydrated. i literally cleaned out my kitchen, i couldn't stop. and i wasn't full when i was done, i was just out of food. i probably ate about 1500 calories in one sitting. that's ridiculous.
so i figure that it's worse if i blame this all on myself. i think my negative attitude isn't really helping me any. i probably ate that much because i'm exhausted. so tonight i'm going to bed early and hoping that helps.
i can do this, i can get down to 121 by next week. it's not that much to lose, if all that weight this morning really was just water weight.
i've got all 32 of you on my side :) there was a while when i was preachin to myself on here, it's nice to know all you lovely ladies are there :) sorry i've been such a bad commenter, i'm reading i promise!
tomorrow i'm going to try to right the wrongs of today, wish me luck.
p.s. thinspo post next time! i'm sorting my 845 thinspo pictures as we speak.. or i speak to you. i guess when you're reading this, i'm probably not sorting pictures. then again, you could be reading this right as i post it. or sorting pictures is taking a really long time. i hope it's not that option...
ack. i'll stop babbling. love you all!