i've thought about it nonstop since last night, considering whether i should do the skinny girl diet or not. and i've decided i'm going to at least try.
i need to stay away from the pills and knives and purging, i don't want to make those things into habits. but this starving and restriction is already a habit. i want the control and bones and i want to do this. i know it's an extreme diet and i really really really appreciate all the advice i've been given on it, but this is what i want.
i love you girls. stay strong and stay beautiful.
oh and i realized i made this picture thing of me and i never put it up here.
i hate hate hate that first picture. more than absolutely anything. i had just eaten and look pregnant and it's disgusting.
i also hate posting pictures of myself on the internet soo.. this will probably come down soon.
and it did, sorry. i'm not too comfortable with pictures of me up here. xox.